Reflections
June 26, 2008
by Nora Neal-Daggett
Four years ago, I was praying earnestly for my husband’s recovery from double pneumonia. I can still hear that deep, racking cough and the gasping breaths that followed the coughing seize. I could only stand still and pray for the spell to pass and offer comfort measures.
I would have gladly taken his place; been the one who was sick. Ah, but that was not God’s plan or purpose. Instead, He took me through darkness, blacker than the darkest night and stripped away a love I thought I could not live without!
Then He lovingly, tenderly guided me over the road of grief into a peace—a peace that passes all understanding. I remember that day vividly! Allow me to share it with you.
I finally decided to return to work, still in quiet mourning. Since God had called my husband to heaven the commute home was difficult. You see we had driven home together for five years. It was our de-stress time. We shared our day, giving one other advice, agreed to disagree, laughing away the miles and through the long lines of cars we made our way West on I-66. Now, I faced the long ride home alone…with my tears.
Therefore, today would be no different from the previous week. Or so I thought. I got into the car, pulled out into the traffic on Reservoir Road and began to prepare myself for the intermittent tears and the sadness I routinely felt as I drove home…
It didn’t come. Instead I felt a calm peace. Like stepping into a nice warm shower on a cold morning. H-m-m-m-m, serenity…undisturbed; I felt more like more old self again, yet different.
I wasn’t crying nor was I dreading the drive. I wasn’t wishing Rue was here, holding my hand. I took a deep cleansing breath and expressing an audible sigh as I exhaled—finally! Lord, thank you for this moment…this peace…Aha…this must be it!!! The peace that passes all understanding! I’m living it this very moment!
Prayer of Acceptance…
Father, God, this is my life now. I drive home alone. I am a new widow. But, nevertheless, I have you. I am yours and you are mine. I realize that tears will still be a part of my journey…my healing. But right now, God, I thank you for the peace that passes understanding.
Scripture:
“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything, by prayer and supplication, with
thanksgiving, let your requests be known to God: and the peace of God which passes all understanding will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6
NKJV
“You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You. Because he trusts in You.” Isaiah 26:3. NKJV
He will give you peace. (emphasis mine)
Peace I leave with you. My peace I give unto you… Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” John 14: 27. NIV
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