Hopes, Dreams and Expectations

I remember one day shortly after my husband’s funeral, my oldest son said to me, “Mom I know it’s early to say this, but I can see you married again, you are a relational type woman.” I listened to the statement and maybe in some portion of my soul I received it. But “really” did not think it would come to fruition. However, about two years post his funeral, I began to think it might be nice to have a male friend. I began to pray about it and asked God to provide just the right someone.

My girl friends had been wonderful and had truly walked with me over some pretty tough terrain. My sons had been supportive, caring and had done all they could do to walk me from mourning to joy. Now, I was missing the companionship a good man provides.

A few months later, I was introduced to a very nice man. We dated off and on for about a year. I invested a lot of energy, time and effort in the relationship. Eventually, I began to see that we expected different things and I asked that we bring closure to the relationship. How do you spell relief? P-R-A-I-S-E G-O-D! I penned the last entry in my journal and counted it all joy!

As the final chapter of that relationship was written, a woman I’d prayed with for several years said I should meet her brother. “Right”, I said, “I have enough energy for a friendship and that’s it!”

We met a few months later over dinner with my girl friend. I liked him immediately! He has an old spirit, down to earth, sweet, kind, and very considerate. But most importantly, he proclaimed he was a man of God! He talked the talk and Praise God, walked the walk! Over the course of the last year our prayers for one another and our talks have kindled a love for one another that we consider a true blessing straight from the throne of God.

Will we be married? I pray that we will be. Do I have dreams and expectations? Sometimes, if I’m honest! But, the one thing I know for sure is that God’s will is more important to me than any dream, hope or expectation I can have. Because I know his word tells me that He has a plan for me! HE HAS A PLAN FOR ME! It is His plan and I truly will not get in the way because some of my toughest times have been when I was not in God’s will. So, as Paul says in his writings, I am content to be where I am.

Prayer: All wise, all powerful, most heavenly Father, El Roi (pronounced El raw-ee) the God who sees me, thank you for knowing what’s best for me and thank you for your guidance and your steadfast patience with me. Thank you for your words in Jeremiah 29:11 that you have a plan and purpose, for good and not for evil.

Very often Lord, the people you send into my life out of no where, for no reason turn out to be the very best for me! I’m asking Lord for patience, for wisdom and especially your grace as I take yet another step in your plan for my life. Help me Lord to never take my eyes off you and to fully trust in you in every aspect, everyday, in everyway!

Scripture: For we are saved by hope; but hope that is seen is not hope. But if we hope for what we can not see then we do with patience wait on it. Romans 8:24-25. KJV.